okay, emo morning.... thank u very much... for ruining my drive to go to sch to attend my interesting social work lect today and also the drive to do my marketing project with my project mates ltr...

thank u tears, for making my sleepy eyes from my bad sleep more tired by having unstoppable amount of salty water gushing out from my eyes....

it all started with me missing her, and i cried ystd night..
aggravated by the fact that i got a long day in sch with a tough malay mid terms to start off the day.. is going to be another disappointment...

knowing myself, i am going to be mentally drain, i purposefully set two alarms, 7am (if i could wake up, i will do my work) but is a just in case,i set another one at 8am, sorry, i know is stupid to many of u, but it works for me, guilt-trap, and making me feel that even though i didnt do my work, i got enough slp...

but i didnt have a gd slp, my body was stiff and aching all over, couldnt find a right position, and coupled with weird dreams.. which led me to a very very very very foul mood...

yah, my parents, being thoughtful as usual, will come and wake me up when they heard my alarm rang.. and also morning calls from office, BUT I WAS JUST VERY VERY ANGRY THAT MY MY SLP WAS RUINED...

i went to scold them. yes, i did... and i dono where i got the courage to just call my dad and confront him.. yah, made both of them very angry at me..

and after i calmed down, yes, that's the time when my heart and my mind was filled with regrets... and that was when my tears became mischievous and came rolling down my cheeks... uncontrollably..

im sorry daddy mummy, i know my temper has become worse these few months.. and i couldnt control it... i m really very sorry...


i am just seriously packed with alot of stuff.. the fear of not doing well, the fear of my CAP falling.. seriously, doesnt feel good at all...

and doesnt mean i don go around posting it, means i don need care...
sometimes, as much as i like to help people with their problems, i would also want people to listen to me...
but i don wan to trouble them even more with such trivial matters...

i miss gang and vera so so much..
when i m with them, NATURALLY, all my problems are gone.. as much as i wanted to tell them, i would prefer to treasure the happy moments and just to have fun rather than wasting time talking abt my trivial problems... i would be so normal again, the cheerful and crazy me....

but i also want to thank some angels that have appeared in my life at some point of time..

Mui hong... thank u very much! i dono when u will see this post, but i know u will eventually.. thank u for being there, even though we only had short convo (due to my sleepy nature) but it always bring me moments of happiness and relief... :))

Mag!! i know u wont even see this post lah! haha... but thank u for listening to me all these times and also for ur constant encouragement and motivation! it has been so so long ever since we talked about our thoughts and feelings, but i thought the lunch at deck that day very heart-warming.. aww.. thank u mag! we will support each other along the way k!!!!!



thank u dear.. :) u have a cry-baby girlfriend... but u always tolerated all my nonsense... thank u..


emo emo go away, don come back on any other days... little sheean wants to be okay...
( not bad huh.. instant creation- :rain rain go away)


stop crying! U CAN BE SO MUCH STRONGER! stop all ur self-pity! u don need any of them!!!!


*sheean* 10:27 AM